Scary Ass Dream

[eiahmon]

Quite some time ago, I read a book about that nutjob that locked his daughter up in the basement for 24 years and used her as his own personal fucktoy. Not long after that I saw this pic:






and my imagination combined the two. Needless to say, the results were not pretty. What's worse, is the fanfic writer in me wants to write about this damned thing. I keep pushing the idea aside, but it keeps coming back. Hopefully, posting the dream will stop it.



The dream is this:
Atsushi was somehow abducted by a group of crazed fans - the dream never said exactly how many, but I know that they were men and women - and they locked him up in a bedroom like the one in the pic. The group then proceeded to use him as they pleased, all the while without ever letting him see any light at all. No sunlight, no electric light, not even candlelight. He was kept in total darkness 24/7. They just tortured him, and it went on for YEARS until he was eventually discovered and rescued.
Unfortunately, Atsushi was a mess, mentally and physically. He had been badly abused, physically and sexually, and he was terrified of any kind of light. The dream never said if he recovered.

*huffs* Now that you all think I'm out of my mind, maybe this will get that damned insane idea OUT OF MY HEAD! I normally don't have a problem with my imagination, because it's given me lots of stuff to do - just go look at my fanfiction archive - but sometimes it just scares me. Anyone who's read A Moment of Stupidity knows that I can write dark themes with lots or torture and abuse, but I draw the line at writing that stuff about a real person.

Lullaby was one thing. It was also an idea of sorts that refused to go away, but it certainly wasn't a dark story, and in no way was Atsushi physically or mentally hurt. So I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that my imagination will drop this idea of its.

Wish me luck.

Comments

[ff120.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you mean.

Sometimes I get ideas (sometimes from fucked up dreams) and I can't let them go~... so I write a song about it (i don't do stories. just emo lyrics LOL) and that usually takes care of it. so maybe telling us about this can help. <3

And you know~ this might be a stretch, but maybe the dream was also a reflection on acchan's real childhood, full of the darkness he talks about in various interviews. ;_;

just a thought.

thanks for sharing~

[eiahmon.livejournal.com]

*thinks* Hmmm, you know you might be right on that last bit. Even Achan admited in an interniew that his childhoold home was alwasy "dark". Thankfully, his father wasn't abusive, at least not physically. *pets him and hugs him*

You write songs??? *is green with envy* Do you ever put them online?

[ff120.livejournal.com]

Well, I thought there was hinting at physical abuse as well. >< I'll have to reread the interviews. Either way, it's a sad story. << I recently saw a picture when he was about 4 or 5 i suppose, and he has such a serious, sad look on his innocent face! ;_;

Yes! I love writing songs. I've written many lyrics, although I don't have any musical talent as far as composing is concerned. XDDD I play piano and bass guitar, but not enough to write music to my lyrics too! I joke that I need my own Imai! XDDD

I used to post them to my journal, but not anymore. Would you like to see some? o.o

[eiahmon.livejournal.com]

I've seen that look on mini Achan's face too, and it just kills me to think that a child has a homelife that would make them act in such a way. No child sould be that serious.

Yes! I would LOVE to see some! XD

[ff120.livejournal.com]

*blushes* alright. I will PM you one of my songs. XDDDDD I warn you. They are mournful, honest, and from the heart. O_O